I started getting frustrated that a lot of close friends and family just don't get my continued hope and fight. Sometimes when I reference things that I've learned from DB, I can detect that look in their eyes of pity.
Lisa this is a process.
We all have encountered this and it is good.
You are asking questions of yourself.
Most people will never understand what you are doing.
Moreover, as you come to understand yourself you will see that people around you act from their own place of fear. If someone does something to you, you strike back (walk away)
BUT
The tougher road is the one you've chosen.
And YOU don't even understand this yet.
You can read my thread on this subject or it is also in the links given you by OP in Doormat Tactics
You are only a doormat if you believe yourself to be a doormat.
You are only a victim if you believe you are a victim.
The paradox here is that you do believe that right now because you haven't experienced what YOU are capable of yet.
You haven't walked the path that brings you to YOU.
I know this all sounds like esoteric BS
BUT
You will only get there by standing,
You will only get there by questioning
You will only get there by experiencing
Then you will never doubt yourself again.
I am going to spend a nickel here (really I think it's worth a quarter)
Grace wrote
Quote:
it is what it is, and I know I am strong enough to handle whatever happens, and also have compassion for someone who is hurting.
This is loving detachment.
This is an amazing journey Lisa...
Also I believe this:
When you took your vows
You said for better or for worse
Most people don't know what worse is
Most people don't have the stomach for worse (nod Bworl)
You did not say:
I promise to love you for better or worse...
BUT
If you get scared and lose your way
THEN
I won't.
Remember this at all times...
THIS JOURNEY IS FOR YOU.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am