WHY DO WE DO IT?

[navajo]

So, I set myself up this time!

As you may have read in my initial post, my WAW's mother died last week and I went down to TN for the week to support her and the kids.

I was under the impression that things were coming back together. It was like old times while we were there. Talking laughing, touching... and on the 8 hr drive home I know for a fact that she ALMOST said ILY more than a few times while we were talking.

Then we got home and it was like a switch flipped. She helped unload the car, spent about 30 - 45 minutes in the bathroom (I now assume texting the OM) then said "Bye" and left. Now, prior to this I was totally expecting her to say she was sorry and that she was moving back home to work on the M. MAN! Am I a sucker!

Then I asked her if she was coming over today for the 4th and she said she didn’t know.

She called today and said she wanted to get together and either the kids and I could come over to her friends house (with a pool) and hang out or they could come over here. I asked and my son said he wanted to stay home.

So she and the friend came over here just in time for dinner (shock!) and proceeded to ignore my kids and talk to each other. She later asked me why my son was “in a mood” and I told her to stop ignoring him. She did and the evening went a bit better…for a while.

She came in a while later and asked me if there was anything I needed from town and I said no. She then kept asking me if there was anything she could do for me and I finally said, “If you really want to do something, come home”. She said, “Well…?” and walked away.

I have seen the light of what you fine people are saying here and I am ready to listen. I never thought in a million years that my life, my wife would turn out like this. I don’t even know her any more! She is truly acting like a spoiled teenager and I’m not sure I even want her to come back unless she finds the other girl I am in love with again.

Please help! I’ve been to the brink now and looked over the edge and realize I am not ready for this! I have bought DB and am reading it as I get time when the kids are out of the room, but it is slow going since they are both worried about me and keep wanting to hug me and take care of me right now. GOD! I love them! Right now, that is the only thing I am grateful to the W for.

Thanks for reading.