Lisa, Holidays are tough always are. If it is any consolation, I too am experiencing that same lump in my throat and doubt and anxiety. We all get it from time to time, you are not alone.
Read the part in DR where MWD talks about well wishing friends and family. They want you to feel better so they can feel better, I know you want to tell those closest to you about your newfound hope and the steps you are taking. The truth is they just don't and won't understand what you are doing and why you are taking a stand for marriage.
As far as giving the ring back and saying you were done, yep I did that one too back in January. Your actions will speak louder than your words at this point. Moving back will make a big statement, but ultimately you need to do it for you.
Stop worrying about what others will think, you can't control what they think so don't worry about it. BTW you are not returning to your H, you are returning to your home.
Hang in there.
God Bless.
Formerly "missherlove"
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
