Thought I would start a NEW thread...SOMETHING HAS CHANGED...First HAPPY 4th to everyone and PLEASE play safe... Tomorrow Son and I leave on our annual Father and son Retreat to Eureka Calf..... This is my first week off from school in two months. I received a letter from the dean congratulating me on my 100% attendance... I have to admit that something just does not feel right. I can't put my finger on it. I have No desire to buy fireworks this year, (no money anyway) and I am not really excited about our trip. I am sure I will have a great time once we get started…but I just have “that feeling”…something in the world is out of balance.
OK READY FOR THIS……. W informed me that while son and I are gone she is moving BACK into our room. She told me she is not ready for sex yet and it has nothing to do with me. She said she feels bad about her body, her lack of job… she is getting terrible headaches. I asked her if she has seen a doctor about the headaches. She told me that we don’t have the money. I told her money is not a problem when it comes to my family’s health and to go see one. She also informed me that she does not like getting pat on her butt or groping...she’s said it’s her body and she feels like it is invading her space. (Not her exact words but I think you know what I mean.) She told me that the OM is over. I have nothing to worry about. She also told me she does not like the pictures I put up of her in OUR bedroom, she likes the car pictures (my uncles 1956 Chevy that I hope to inherit) but wants to put back the picture she had there and will find another place to put up my car picture. I told her no problem as long as she moved back I don’t need the pictures to remind me of her. I hugged her and told her I loved her so much. She said she knows but has a hard time saying those words. I told her I know. (Only other person I ever heard her say it to was our son) So how do I feel? Not sure... like I said I had this “feeling” before she told me about moving back. But I guess this is a step in the right direction. In 12 more days is our wedding anniversary... Hard to believe what two years ago when this started at this time we were staying at our time share. (Sleeping is separate rooms) and I made her escargot for dinner and ate it myself… YUCK… The next anniversary I hiked to the top of bridal Vail falls in Yosemite just to get a double hernia...
This year……………………
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
She told me she is not ready for sex yet and it has nothing to do with me. She said she feels bad about her body, her lack of job… she is getting terrible headaches. I asked her if she has seen a doctor about the headaches. She told me that we don’t have the money. I told her money is not a problem when it comes to my family’s health and to go see one.
