There is a huge part of me just dying to move as far away from here as possible - to stay as far away from him and this place (his hometown) as I can. I feel like I'm drowning in hurt, humiliation, deception,...
Oh, boy, IB, do I ever know that feeling! There were times last year when I would be driving through town on the interstate, and when I got to my exit, I had the overwhelming desire to just keep going. I still think about leaving, but it is no longer an emotional impulse to run away. It is now a thoughtful consideration of what will be best for me in my new life.
IB, you WILL make it through this. The pain will come and go as the rollercoaster goes up and down, but you will slowly and steadily learn to feel it and process through it more quickly each time. When you are really and truly detached, you will hardly feel the pain at all.
Head up, eyes forward now! Take one step through the hurt, then another. Show those wonderful children what grace and dignity and real strength is. They will follow your lead, so be sure to take a path you can be proud of.
(((Irish)))
M 65 H 64 T 39 & M 36 @ S 12/08 Two Ds
Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man
