If it's the next great thing, it will be there when the time is right and you are healthy enough to balance all that will now be in your life. Sit back and go with the flow....I'm telling you it will be worth the ride.
Think what you have already learned and can continue to learn by being with yourself and being alone. Trust me, you will find strength you never knew you had.
I'm not sure you can compare relationships. For some, fighting works, for others not so much. I just read, "Falling in Love for All the Right Reasons" by the founder of EHarmony. He said you have to have disagreements in a marriage and you must learn to work them out. My xh and I never fought and after 20 years we are now divorced. He told me last year when he left he was tired of compromising. Well, I didn't know he was compromising. There are so many levels of compatability and, to me, that's what it comes down to and I think very few people actually get it right. Some just stick with the misery...
Anyway, validate yourself and look inward. You're going to be just fine, but give it time
Happy 4th!
Me 55 H 49 Married 21 years No kids bomb 5/09 filed 7/09 divorced and moving forward 5/10