Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

Today wasn't too bad. Went to my mom's, my sister and two of my brothers were there, along with my grandmother and her best friend. Had a good time.

While there H called, so I let DS answer and let him talk. H wanted to talk to me, I shook my head no so DS told him I said no. They ended the call then a few minutes later H texted me to say he would tell his sisters I didn't want to see them. I quickly responded that I thought they didn't want to see me, at least the one SIL didn't. H said that they had a talk but maybe it was for the best, meaning that I don't see them. I responded that I would love to see them but maybe it was, for the best I meant. He didn't respond to me, much as I was hoping he would say it was ok, that I should see them.

I do miss his sisters desperately but really, what good would it do me to see them? All I'll do is cry and go on about how much I love H and how much what he's doing is hurting me and ask them if they think he is ever going to leave OW and come back to me, and was he still all confused about everything. Right now I'm looking for anyone to tell me that it's not hopeless, that yes there is a chance for H and I to reconcile still.