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[awest1217]

Yesterday went well. H got S right on time. He wanted to chit chat and I just wanted to talk business. When S left, i got a lot of hugs and kisses then H gave me a long hug. I was mad because then I smelled like him for a while.

I distracted myself for a while putting together H's b-day present from last year, a fire pit, so my fam could roast marshmallows. Then I went to pizza with my fam, and then to Old Navy. We got home and I noticed I had a message, but my phone never rang...

It was S calling because he missed me and wanted to know what I was doing. I was upset I missed it so I tried to call H back, but he wouldn't answer.

H did text to say they were on their way home.

H said they had a good time, but around 4 S started acting fussy, and there was nothing else to do, but watch the airplanes, so he asked S if he wanted to watch another plane or go home, and he said go home. Otherwise, H said they had a good time.

S was very clingy when he got home. All he wanted to do was have me hold him for the first half an hour he got home. Annoying, yet it made me feel good because I know that the bond we have is very strong so no one will ever break it or change it. He loves his momma.

After the cuddling, S started to play with his cousins, which he never gets to do. They live in TN and even when we visit, he sees them for a couple of hours and that is it. Yesterday he got to play with them. Plus they are all old enough to play together, 2 almost 3, 6 and 8. The 8 year old didn't play with them too much, but the 6 year old and S played so well. S loves it!

My only issue is S hasn't talked much about the air show. I have asked tons of questions and he doesn't want to talk about it so I don't know what that is about. I don't know if he was a handful and got yelled at a lot or if he just didn't find it interesting or i am just asking the wrong questions, but he did seem to enjoy the time with his daddy.

Today my fam is with their extended families. My step-sister's mom at lunch and brother-in-law's dad for dinner plus their families. That is what I don't want for S...my family who does a lot and S loves it, H's family who is possessive of him, then step-families...just a lot. Later we will do fireworks at a local park and they leave tomorrow. Then Tuesday is a picnic at my grandma's.

One last thing, when H dropped off S, he came in and my fam was in town of course. My nephew6, came up to ask about putting together one of H's old games that he had played before when they were hear maybe 2 years ago. H looked like he was about to cry. They are his nephews too, and he doesn't get to hang out with them and the same with my step-sister and BIL. I could see the hurt in his eyes, but consequences of his choice. I had to text H about S's cup because it didn't make it back. I also text him to say thank you for doing the outing because it meant a lot to S. I do want to keep things positive between us, but just not romantic. We probably won't talk again for a month when H realizes it is time for S's yearly pics and yearly check-up.