(((Aver))), don't apologize for having a full life! No worries, so glad you are super busy! How is your Dad? Are you having a good visit with him?
THanks as always for your supportive advice. You know I don't think of you as Miss, sorry Ms. Know it all divorce survivor! I appreciate the check ins and updates. It keeps me on track. Maybe more than my C. Probably need to work on that w her!
No, I dont' think I'll dissappear into cyberworld. I don't love it that much! And after a mo. of having no personal computer (but again, grateful to have one I can use sometimes!) I know I can "survive" with minimal online contact. RL GAL is what I need to work on, I definitely know it.
Having these several days off have been like submersion therapy. I put off, put off, put off, for a yr. really, taking time off from work. Dreading how I'd fill it without some big plans. And, guess what. The world is still turning. Yes, I had to eat a Xanax, but like the person who's afraid of water, or flying, if you just force yourself to do it sometimes it takes a lot of the fear away.
I've been walking (really with my dogs it's more running) my pups & it's true that exercise really helps clear the head. Mainly b/c I can't think of anything when I'm about ready to pass out from jogging - against my will sometimes - being pulled by one of my big knucklead boys!
Yes, I'm bummed @ the no reply & will tell L after the holiday. I have not seen any withdrawals from the savings since then. Like you, haggling over the money stuff is the worst, most stomach-turning of any of this "business" stuff. It makes me ill. But I'll deal. I think would I let some friend do this - wouldn't I say something?? Uh, yeah. Of course.
I like your suggestion to send 1 more email. I think it's incredible that some part of me thinks there is any worse he could think of me now, that I would be hesitant to press him on this. Sad, I know. Uggghhhh.
Anyway, on a brighter note, am going to aunt's later for 4th of July, family thing. A friend may stop over.
I remember how torn up I was last yr. on this day, as my aunt & that side of the family didn't know yet about my M. 4 mos. after the bomb & I still hadn't told everyone.
Well, everyone knows now, that's for sure. BTW, meetup.com - great site. That's how I found my drawing class. And I found out about it from someone on here. Yes, I'm definitely in the doing "group" things stage right now.
I am not obsessed about dating. I'm pretty much single in every way except legally. My goal is to be so busy I don't have time to be lonely! Now I've posted that, you're going to keep me to it arent' you??
I like the NYC idea. There's a train to NY from here - it takes all day but only costs $100 round trip I think. Even if it's just a couple nights, could possibly swing. I'll look into it. That would be awesome!
Have a fun rest of your 4th! I will try to hop over to your thread if bro doesn't need his computer. A few more days, & I'll have my own, Yeay! Lots of love & hugs ((((Aver)))))
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