Worst day I have had in awhile. I have contacted her, left her alone. I want to call and try to help. I guess if she needed my help she would call. I dont know why I beat myself up so badly. I really do. I cant do my homework, cant work very well, really just wondering is it worth going through this. I am dead inside. I know you guys know what it is like but I am weak. I don't think I can do it. I can't stand it. I have already told her I would change and meant it. She is gone, moved to miles away. I will never see her again. I cant stand it.
