G, In your heart of hearts, she is the one true love of your life. Take the good memories and store them away in your heart and know that you can pull them out whenever you need them to help you along the way.
My friend, God has a special plan for you. We don't know what it is at this time, but when he's ready, he will reveal all to you. You must have faith and hope that the future will be bright once again.
If you have ever noticed, God has a way of tearing things down/apart and rebuilding them into something more beautiful and stronger than before.
I hope that you will have a nice 4th of July. Please do not sit at home alone...get out there and do something w/your family and/or friends.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.