Very aggravated today! 4th of July is always a big party at our house. H will not be here. I have invited all the usual people and some new ones as well... probably trying to fill what I know will be a void. ...and this is actually my first real entertaining with H not here.
So last night he starts txting me, the theme was basically woe is him, no one cares about him... yada yada yada I answered a few more times than I should have. But kept it sort of brief.
What I don't get is once he got rid of me I thought his life was supposed to be perfect???? I am sure he is having a ball on all his adventures and I figure last night was more about people being here and him thinking we would be talking about him. I am sure it had nothing to do with me.
I have a hard time not answering when he contacts me... I seldom do, but it is agony for me. I know he just needed his NNP fix. I wonder since he didn't get it if he will be trying again all day today. I guess I will leave my phone on my nightstand.
He doesn't want me, he threw me away, why won't he leave me alone?
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
