Still Moving Forward

[BeingMe]

Just noticed H's wedding ring is off. Don't know for how long. Oh well, I know for sure now that he's not going to fight for the marriage. Quite a relief, because he kept denying his disinterest, and that he doesn't love me, so I thought I might have a problem on my hands. By his actions and mood, though, I think I am doing the right thing for him too. He seems lighter, happier, as if a load has been lifted. I'm glad. He doesn't have to prove anything to me anymore; he's free as I am. Sadly, I didn't want him to prove anything; I just wanted him to be honest, and I guess he couldn't be that and married. I knew there was something off. I am glad that I am free of my love for him, at last. It has caused me more pain than joy.

We are busy fixing the house, so it can be put up for sale, although it's rather a buyer's market. So, we'll have to tread carefully. We're going to need every cent if we go through S and D.