Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

My evening went a bit better than my day. Went to my sister's so DS could go swimming and we had dinner there. While there my sis was talking to DS and I mentioned how he tried to show me the ultrasound picture and that I made him give it to his father. My sister said she was stunned that H would have even given DS that sort of thing, then asked him what he thought about the baby and DS said he thought it was bad. He then commented that it was a boy, my sister asked me if I had already known that and I said I hadn't, I didn't want to know.

As heartbroken as I am that it's not me giving DS a second child, had it been a girl I would be even more upset because a girl is what I was desperately aching for when DS kept refusing to have a second child with me, that DS was the only child he wanted.