Well, its been a couple of days, and the whatever feeling is still there, BUT a new realization has popped up, in that I'll never be able to turn off the bond I have with him, that will always remain, BUT I can turn off the 'in love' bit, over time I think...I hope. At least thats what I'm reckoning for now.
Pick a stratedgy and stick with it hey?
Went out with my GF and her H and old school friend last night - its the fifa cup and old school friend(OSF) is engaged to uber weathy sportbetting british fellow, staying at one of the most opulent hotels in the country, and we went in to ogle at all the rich people, and check out their glitsy suite! hardy har!!
Tried my best to seem like I disnt come from only the mid upper class, not sure I convinced anyone! We did arrive in my BGF old beaten up Honda!!! We all had a good laugh about it tho, ours was the only beaten up honda amoungst rows and rows of porsches and mercedes!
Anyway it was a good night! This morning took S4 to a production of Jungle book at out nearby mall which he's been begging for.
He was more interested in his packet of peanuts than the scantily clad ,swinging-from-ropes ,jungle characters (with rippling muscles that mommy was staring at - oh dear, I'm only human, and havnt had sex in 4 months:) )
Anyway, H smsed me this morning at 7:30 asking if I was up and awake - he wanted to fetch his freinds bike out the garage. I said sure ofcourse, he wafted in all happy in his mountain biking clothes, and a new beanie on his head which I thought was the cutest thing I've seen, well him in it was anyway. I did say I thought it was super cute, with a naughty grin on my face...twice. I couldnt get over it, he just looked so cute. Anyway, he bounded out all happy, and off he went riding.
Said he was going to go get his boat at the river and bring it back and then come see S4 this eve, so that will probaly be just for bath and bed later. But have come to not expect anything nowadays
Anyway thats it for now. S4 has been a bit too much for me today, been in a testin g mood, and I find myself sitting here with a glass of red wine at 6pm!- although thats not very unusual nowadays!!
