We received paperwork for divorce on thursday, and my H's lawyer wanted to make an appointment for me to sign on July 15th. I have a doctors appointment at that time and can't make it. My husband frantically emailed back and got instructions about how I could take the paperwork to a notary and sign and that would be good enough. Of course I told him I wasn't signing anything until my lawyer had an opportunity to look things over.

I am so sad to see how much he wants to push this, its like he can't wait for the marriage to be over.

Thursday he spent the day packing up his car to take more things to OW's house. Although our business was open all day friday, he left early that morning. While I was getting ready, he came up to the bedroom and pecked me on the cheek and forehead and told me to have a good weekend. I hate that I just start feeling more detached, and a simple bit of affection that I crave so much sends me spinning again. Why on earth would he do that, kiss his wife goodbye on the way to see his mistress?

Feeling pretty blue this long weekend. I'm finding it hard to keep a PMA, maybe I need to get away from the computer and find some sunshine.


Me - 38
Husband - 40 MLC!
Together 12 years
Married 11 years
Still the love of my life
Forever only lasted 10 years before his MLC and affair

H started D paperwork 5/13/10