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[awest1217]

Well...today is the first day H is with S (not completely alone because his parents are going so still not one time H has been alone with S since he left). I am glad H is trying, but at the same time i hate not being with them. I love S and I keep getting this bad feeling that the only reason H wants to drive separate from his parents (he says it is because S may need to leave early and his parents want to stay until 10) and the only reason he chose Saturday instead of Friday (Friday they had kid stuff going on instead of an air show) is that OW is going to either drive with them or meet them there.

I know S will tell me everything that happened when he gets home so I will find out pretty quickly, but my big thing is H has said numerous times it is just him and his parents...if OW happens to "run" into them...well that will seal the deal on our fate.

Part of me is glad H is trying to be a dad because S is so happy about it, but part of me hates it because H is such a bad role model that I don't want S to follow. H talks a good talk to me when it comes to S. He says he tells his parents how important going to church is to both of us and how I am the authority because he chose to do what he has done, but still.

Alright off to get some things ready. Take a shower then wait...

I think I would feel better if their first outing was somewhere closer, but like I have said before I am sure this will be his monthly fix and I will probably not hear from him until I make contact as is what happens every month. This month he is doing this stuff because S wanted to talk to H so i called him for S. Never has he initiated anything so we will see.