Saturday Morning Update:

H didn't come to bed til 2:30am. He hugged the edge of the mattress for awhile and at some point, got up and went to sleep in the office. I mean, on the floor - with 2 thin blankets! Can't be very comfortable.

Sure would like to know what happened in that counseling session to take him back to feeling more hopeless in the marriage. Like I said previously, maybe she held his feet to the fire and he doesn't like it. Maybe he is subconsciously testing me to see if I really am strong enough to let him go - who knows. I know I have to be stronger now than ever but it's difficult when their actions make you that much sadder yet you have to be even tougher.

I guess my plan of actio is not to bring up talk of R or the session. However, if he brings it up I will stay rational and reiterate that until he is willing to be an open book, nothing will work in restoring what was good between us.