I am no longer your doormat is my motto too. H stopped staying overnight here this week. He puts S to bed and leaves. Months ago I would have felt devastated, but now I'm relishing the space, and the increased time away from his anger.
I am finally beginning to see how much I have depricated myself - blamed myself, felt bad about myself, begged for crumbs. No wonder H treats me like a garbage dump. I don't need a person who tries to make me feel so horrible - and succeeds!
PLease take your S somewhere by yourself. I did that a few weeks ago and it felt amazing. To get away from the abusive relationship and have freedom to relax with S was priceless. (Well, financially expensive lol, but emotionally and spiritually priceless!)
My H cannot have me back, even if he decides he wants to until he stops screaming, blaming, swearing, insulting, jabbing. I'm through trying to communicate and explain how much this hurts me with the hope that he will stop. He will not stop, and that is his problem, not mine anymore. His loss. If he ever turns around, which is unlikely, he needs to see and own his own part in this or I"m fighting in D court. Finally. Getting some power.
