i text a friend of mine of 16 years, happens to be a man. we have always been friends nothing more. we have been talking on and off.
i've been asking family and friends what they are doing for the 4th, his response was going to his brothers, would i like to come. i said i didn't think his invite was serious.
after some thought and him telling me where ever he is i am welcome. my thought was this: i'm so messed up from my relationship with h. i said to my friend, i'm legally married-seperated for 9 months, have 2 very young children, fat. wouldn't it be wierd or ackward to go.
i told him i'm coming from a place of rarely feeling wanted or need and always last.
i feel guilty if i went like ihave violated my marriage vows. Would I be if me and kids went to my friends family house, saw old friends from 16 years ago, them being the opposite sex?
Me 39 H 30 d 18 previous marriage d 2.5 with H s 4.5months with H Seperation Nov09 july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline
