I'm 43 and I borrowed temporarily from my mom too IDU. Plan to pay her back ASAP. No shame there buddy. It happens to all of us.

My W continues to look more and more stressed out. Like you, I keep hoping she will crack, but she is tough and I have a nagging feeling also that she will stick this out to the end.

Saw my L today and asked that we request she get moved out of the house at the temporary hearing and have to get a full-time job. Maybe a little wake-up call will help shake her loose. Or maybe we are just doomed. I don't know, but I am ready to go either way.

Stay strong.