Serious question. What does it matter at this point?
I dunno. I guess maybe Im feeling the 2x4's and wanted to show that I wasnt reading to much into things. Feels like some are saying something like " if she really wanted you to have it she would have made sure you got it" I think it was Coach that said she had already detached at the time it was written, and the actual words Im holding in my hands simply dont jive with that mindset. They clearly scream to me that she was trying to reach me and wanted me to know how she felt before it was to late and that she felt when she wrote it that I could still turn things around.
She basically made a list of things she needed from me and then never gave it to me ! Its almost like having a cleaning lady come over and you dont bother to leave her a list of what you want done and then you fire her for not just knowing what you wanted. Sorry if thats a crappy analogy
