Icky feelings...just waited for the day to end. I wasn't depressed, just kinda irritable, almost angry at the memories.??
Email from H "thinking of you today". No reply from me.
Spent the afternoon w/ girlfriend at our corner wine bar w/ salads and pinot grigio.
I am still wondering what happened "over there" as H refers to it.
Woke up this morning to the LMAO topic on PEI's thread which cheered me immensely.
Took my mom and the kids and the nieces and nephews to the river to splash for awhile. Really hot out (114) and the water (snowmelt) really cold! My mom is obsessively over-protective (to the point of being crazy and it is becoming a problem,) of my nephew10. He fell while in the water at the river's edge, and she did this big dramatic "save" (he was fine) and flopped in the river and allowed herself to float away pulling him with her. Arrghhh. We had to pull her out (she would not stand in the 12" water, the river is only 30" at it's deepest) Did I mention Niece9 and D16 were standing right next to him knee-deep? Well, that is probably for another board on crazy mothers! lol. Mom had her phone, camera, and watch with her, and it is all my fault b/c I didn't check us into the 4star resort for the weekend like I always do for the 4th. Argggh
DD16 said she talked with her dad today and he seemed different. Really talkative, joked, laughed, old dad. He still hasn't mentioned his change in living arrangements to her, but when he said he was making himself dinner, she asked why doesn't his girlfriend cook? she said he just made a noise...so if he hasn't told the kids they are not living together anymore, he is not committed to ending things w/her. (My reasoning...mind reading, I know, i know...)
He asked her if we are still planning on the car show tomorrow night. (Surprised he remembered suggesting these plans to nephew16 last Sunday...is he looking forward to it?) That means he has to come here to get the car. Then drive to the show, hang out for a few hours, bring the car back.
That I can handle. My question is.. (now remember, he is a true cake-eater) How do I be? Do I maintain my cool but friendly distance? Or is this the time to open the door a bit more? Throw him a rope so to speak. Drop him a few crumbs? How can I draw him out, without pursuing. He is coming out, I am sure, but, the tightrope I am walking just got a bit finer..It now feels like a fishing line! I don't want to spook him nor do I want him to stagnate from a fear of my response. This is also a crucial time for him on getting through his addiction w/OW. The last 2 times (that I know of, I suspect more) he has given in to her pursuit. Does that all make sense? IDK. I am confusing myself here!
"If you strike me down, I will become more powerful than you can possibly imagine!" 1st thread
