So sorry to read your story and I feel your pain of course I am no expert as I am on here for similar reasons but what I do know is what your are feeling is normal but I think you need to take care of yourself and don't make yourself so available to him when he trys to communicate. He walked out on you and was mean about doing it. Its one thing to be unhappy in a marriage but he didn't have to be a jerk about it and make you feel awful. You need to do things to get your self esteem back so you can get stronger and be better able to deal with this rather then feeling like you can't breath...I know that feeling all to well. I also know the more you cry, beg, plead your case and ask 21 questions the more he will resist you and the worse you will feel. You need to take a breather and not communicate for a little bit. Believe me I know it is hard but it is possible. Move a muscle chage a thought.
M37 H30 D1 S18 (previous relationship) M 1yr Bomb 6/25/10
I keep reminding myself I am strong even if I don't feel it. I know from my past this is true. I might just get a tattoo to remind me.