Don't worry about how many opportunities you have. Use the ones you do have to the best of your ability. Remember, you also have fewer chances of going "emo" on him too.
As easy as it is to divulge info to others and talk about your sitch, rein yourself in and the sooner you stop, the better. Anything he sees as pressure may have him out the door and down the block. Vent here.
Why offer any arrangements for when he comes to visit? He's a grown man and can take care of himself. I understand, but I wouldn't offer. If he asks, then it is something for you parents to decide, don't you think?
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I am also a little worried that my positive attitude will tick him off given that this is supposed to be 'it'.
Having a positive attitude can be a little daunting at first. For me, aside from the fact I was "faking it", like you I thought I would be sending a message I didn't want to send. As you attitude adjusts over time and does become more positive, it makes it easier for them to be around us. They are well aware of the damage and hurt they have caused.
Even with my "best foot forward", I have never sent the message "everything you did is just fine, I'm great now that you're gone and you don't and never did matter." It's more like, "it is what it is, and I'm strong enough to deal with whatever happens, and compassionate enough to understand how much you hurt too."
It takes time and patience to find your footing. Try not to panic.
