Hmm, thank you for the replies. And the writing advice. I kinda saw that coming. But you guys know that if you leave out too much detail, one could be confused and seen as giving a biased, one-sided story. I just wante everyone to understand, I'm seriously at fault for a lot of the breakdowns in our recovery efforts.
As far as the use of the word "victim", perhaps wrong. I got into the relationship. My wife did as well. We both take responsibility for it and neither of us are so petty to try and use anything else (especially our own emotions) as a crutch to throw the blame on. I did it, I got busted, I'm not proud. And if I hadn't been busted, it probably would have gotten physical.
Again, if recovery procedures were done right and regular maintenance was conducted, we'd probably be a well oiled machine to this date. I stumbled and now I need to put all the pieces back together so I can do my part in making this marriage work!