Fun does not mean sex. It means we usually enjoy each others company until we have been around each other to long. I am stepping back. I will not contact her again. I promise that. I will not get her anymore pills because I am not going to talk to her unless she calls and I will not get her anymore. She says that she is co-dependant on me, I feel like I am co-dependant on her. That is completely insane. But, I am leaving her alone and will not meet her until she is divorced.
Yes, that is not love is it. That is just selfishness. I just got off the phone with my counseler. I can not have a healthy relationship with this woman. I need to let go. I need to get healthy myself. I have not been eating or sleeping. I am going to try to eat tonight. I am going to get over this.
This woman has called me and ask for money saying that I was the only one she could count on twice in the last month. The last time she got money from me she married someone else 4 days later. I let her use my charge card this week to buy clothes, she took all my change at my house. This is not love. She realizes that I love her and she is taking whatever she can get from me. I think she feels that since I treated her bad in her eyes I owe her. I really feel a little used now. Maybe she never did love me. She says she does but her actions are not there i dont think.
I think she feels that since I treated her bad in her eyes I owe her. I really feel a little used now. Maybe she never did love me. She says she does but her actions are not there i dont think.
I read the book but I didn't know that mind reading is bad. It seems like that is all people do in relationships. My wife thought I treated her bad all the time because I didnt do what she wanted but she never ask or told me what she wanted.
yikes, your sitch sounds JUST like my ex's and a crazy woman he was having an A with... it is just toxic to the max, he thought he owed it to her, that he could save her... she took advantage of him in every way she could, time and time again tears and watever else she had was used and he fell in every time...
Change your phone number, don't let her pull you in again, she knows how to play you...good thing you didnt' marry her as she sounds totally lost... if she is an addict all she is thinking of is how to get her next fix, and since you are so nice to her she is taking advantage of your love to her... hope you have decided to stop cold turkey and be out of her life, she is taking you down... you are not Jesus, you can't save her, she has to pull herself through, it is not in your hands, it never was, it never will be.
Hope you are getting treated for your depression, I partly understand since x was also depressed and at one point suicidal... a good diet and exercise do wonders, so even if you are not hungry eat, load up on fruits, skip the sodas, refined sugars and late nights watching tv. A great book that will help you is Dr. Amen's 'Healing Anxiety and Depression' you need to clean your mind from toxic and negative automatic thoughts.
KNOW you will make it, be sure of it, even if you don't feel it...wake up every day and decide to live that day to its fullest, claim your life again. You can do it. I will keep you in my prayers... my sitch brought me back to God, praying when I felt weak and putting my problems in God's hands liberated me...I can truly say I have healed and I give God all the credit.
Take care))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Worst day I have had in awhile. I have contacted her, left her alone. I want to call and try to help. I guess if she needed my help she would call. I dont know why I beat myself up so badly. I really do. I cant do my homework, cant work very well, really just wondering is it worth going through this. I am dead inside. I know you guys know what it is like but I am weak. I don't think I can do it. I can't stand it. I have already told her I would change and meant it. She is gone, moved to miles away. I will never see her again. I cant stand it.
