I hear you, Trugritter. I send my thoughts and whatever strength I have left out to you.
I was researching the effects of child sexual abuse upon individuals when I happened upon PTSD. As I studied trying to figure out what had happened to my X I realized much of what I was reading described me. When I mentioned this to my C he agreed.
I know X is damaged goods. I always did but it is more obvious now than ever. She says she is going to kill the perpetrator when he gets out of prison. I was shocked when she told me this. Funny thing is she stopped me when I was on the way to do just that years ago.
I've shocked myself of late with the thought of telling her she won't have to kill him because I am.
"Now is the summer of our discontent..." Hamlet
"Fear is the mind-killer" Muad'Dib Me 53, XW 44, DD 14, DS 12 Bomb and OM 12/15/06 Separated 01/02/07 Divorced 05/13/08 X married OM(OMH) 08/2009 Married 06/09/13