Things That Matter

[ClingingToHope]

Time heals. Time heals. The 4th is big for me, too. It was the first time STBXW and I were together. We'd make sure we celebrated that anniversary every year until about six years ago. Then it just became another day.

Last 4th was tough. STBXW offered to let me have the kids and I didn't have anything going and gladly accepted. We had a GREAT time, but it turned out STBXW had an ulterior motive. She had a party to go to.

That was a bit of a lesson -- don't ever think she's offering extra time with the kids out of the goodness of her heart.

This year in mediation I basically made sure she had the kids for all of the party holidays. It's my turn to GAL.

Tonight is good. Going to a bar tour for a TV reporter who is leaving town. Tomorrow night is sketchy. I'll have to ask around, but I'm playing golf in the afternoon.

Sunday? Church then meeting a church singles group at 5:30 p.m. for the fireworks.

I'll get to see two very pretty eligible single women -- one tonight and one Sunday. I'm hoping to ask one or both out eventually. I'm just soooo afraid of rejection right now I haven't been able to just go for it.

My HOPE is that this 4th is the beginning of new memories to replace/augment the old. I mean, I doubt I'll ever forget the first 4th between STBXW and I. I just hope I have other great 4th memories to think of as well.

Something good is going to happen to you. Just believe it.