This is a very unhealthy sick relationship but we do have fun together. Nobody knows if she really loves me or not. Nobody, including herself knows what she is going to do. She is looking for something safe. I pressured her but after reading someother posts I think that I am right. I have to draw the boundary somewhere. I have tried for several years to get over this girl. I have dated many others and think about her when I am with them. I have even slept with others, I thought it would start the healing. She is just a hard one. We always talk about how we are soulmates. She told me yesterday in her tears that she doesnt want to live without me, that she wants to be buried beside me. I dont think that she would say these things to lead me on. She doesnt know what she wants and is very confused. The drugs dont help either.
