Grit, It is getting easier because it is part of me now. I do not have to work at it. When I got the text last night, there was a fleeting half a second where I thought, "She's not coming, she knows I bought extra shrimp".....it was gone just like that. No judgement, no thought, no emotion.
It made me smile....for me.
yeah I still want my W, but I have this peace about it, kinda hard to put into words....comfortable would probably be the word.
SA, I tell you, I pray every morning and everynight and some during the day. I have been praying for this since January, now I am thanking Him for it. Patience and in His time.
PEI and Breal,
Thank you for the kind words, I don't know what my "family" is going to look like in the future but no matter what there will always be Mom, Dad, D13 and S9, and my kids need to know that will never change whether we are all together under one roof or not.
On another note....you 2 ever get together please try to leave things as you found them, I think the 2 of you together could be a little dangerous, LOL.
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
On another note....you 2 ever get together please try to leave things as you found them, I think the 2 of you together could be a little dangerous, LOL.
LOL ... noted! Ya know ... maybe we'll do a tour ... and end up on the deck for a live Little Friday! What do ya think Breal? Think they can handle it?
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
What a fantastic weekend so far…… Friday after I got home from work I was unwinding when my W showed up to pick up my S9, she was in good spirits so was I. We sat on the patio for a little bit and had a beer and caught up, I could tell she wanted to stay but her roommate was expecting her and S9 for dinner. I dipped my toe in the water a little and said to my W…”Wife, I would like it if you came to the pool party tomorrow.” She smiled and said, “lets see how it goes” I said fine.
She went upstairs to talk to D13 who was in her room while I got S9’s stuff together. They said their goodbyes and left. Later while eating dinner with my D13 she said that mom asked her if it was okay if she came to the pool party, my D13 said it would be fine. My W texted me later that night to ask me to save a chair for her and her 25 yr old roommate who looks like Jennifer Garner (see pics on alt.) I will have to say I was pretty excited, not crazy that roommate was coming but W was coming to a pool party where all our friends will be and she was going to be there for sure.
I was walking on air knowing my W was coming over. She came to the party and it was great. All our friends were so happy to see her and came over to talk to her and made her feel welcome. I tried not to crowd her at all and just went with the flow all day. I had to run back to the house and throw together some sandwiches for her and D13, cooked the rest of the shrimp leftover from the other night and brought it back up to the pool, she was impressed and was thankful.
There was one point in the pool where I saw the very immature, teenage like side of her, it was so weird to watch her interact with her 25 yr old roommate. It just told me that she is still in that MLC mode. I tried getting a little close to her in the pool one time and it lasted about a minute and then she got a little antsy and pulled away. However later in the day after the 25 yr old roommate left, she allowed me to rub her back and get close with her. This continued back at the house and there was more sensual rubbing that she was allowing but she was not reciprocating. I think she was enjoying it and she never asked me to stop. We ate dinner and then went to see the neighborhood fireworks where she got cold and I did not have a blanket so again I rubbed her back and legs to keep her warm and she seemed to be fine with it.
After the fireworks we headed back to the house where S9 gathered his things and they got ready to go as I walked them out to the car, I got a hug. This was by far the longest hug and strongest we have had in over a year. It was great. We agreed that we would see each other at church the next morning. We said our goodnites.
Today, July 4th, I had gone to early service and was headed to Sunday School when my W and S9 walked in the entrance closest to my/our Sunday School class. I happened to be at the door b/c I had just returned from my car with my coffee. The 3 of us walked in together (D13 stayed home, babysitting late nite before) and as we were approaching our classroom all our friends were standing outside and thought we had come together. They all surrounded my W and started saying hello and greeting her, they had not seen her in a long time. Again lots of reconnection with friends. My W and S9 went onto the late service and I to Sunday School.
We ended up going out to eat as a family after church, went home in one car to pick up D13 and went out to eat lunch. After lunch D13 went with mom to do a little shopping with babysitting money while I stayed home with S9. D13 ended up spending the night with mom again!!!
There was only one moment at the end of the evening when I was taking D13 and my W back to W’s car at church where I kind of had the wind knocked out of my sails. I ask my wife if she wanted to come with me, D13 and S9 to visit my MIL (yes, her mom), in a couple of weeks. She said no, I should not have asked….oh well, I am over it now but at the time it got me down. I am feeling better now just having recounted the weekend. Way more positives and only one negative, and she could change her mind before then, I will as again but I will state it differently. More later…….
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
Grit, Thanks for the gentle reminder on taking the temperature. I am going to squeeze this post out as I am about to hit the road with the kids. Going to Florida to visit my mom. Should be relaxing.
Waiting on my W to return with D13. She spent the night with her last night. I will catch up with things later this evening.
Hope you had a good 4th. Did you do anything special? Cheers
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
Hey missher ... glad to hear you had a fabulous weekend! As hard as it is ... remember to have NO EXPECTATIONS! You own the responsibility here for keeping yourself safe from disappointment. Enjoy the positives and let it be what it is ...
Awesome pics on the alt by the way
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
I am back dude. First let me say that I am happy you had a good weekend. Congrats. I know that I do not have to tell you this...take it for what it is. No exceptions. None. Just enjoy the time and let what will happen happen.
For little Friday - I have one request...can everyone please have a gin (sapphire) and tonic on my behalf. I suggest that we come up with a drink of choice for each little friday. We may also want to come up with a song of choice. So my vote is:
Gin and tonic and the song so far away by staind.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
