It sickens me to think that they will have to deal with a broken family.
What should disturb you more is if they have to deal with a broken parent (You). Your actions and how you handle this are teaching them what it means to be a parent, how to be a man, and so on.
You just have to have to decide to do what is right no matter how you feel. It's OK to feel sad, angry, and so on. It's not OK to act out of sadness, anger, desperation, and so on. Time to really, really step up.
You are 100% correct and I totally agree.
That's part of the reason I stay here; I know I need to get past the anger and bitterness. I still need some help in that area. I am making strides. I will not try to hurt her even though part of me wants her to hurt. It would only reinforce her feelings towards me even more.
