Nothing really new to report, Bond. I am spending the day filling out a questionnaire from my lawyer describing our financial position. I've been putting it off since I've been busy with other things, but this is the first step in getting the dissolution ball rolling.
W has been talking about meeting with a divorce resolution service rather than getting lawyers involved. I told her that I am not willing to do anything without legal representation. I feel our situation is complex enough with the three kids and our assets to warrant having everything done by a lawyer. I told her she can do whatever she wants, but I'm using a lawyer. She's not very happy about that, but she thinks I'm going to file for divorce and battle it out in court. I have no intention of doing that. I'm going for a dissolution. The discussion between us got pretty heated.
I certainly don't want to be sitting down with a mediator and pounding out a "fair" deal, when I don't know what "fair" is.
Our talk covered some R issues that mainly dealt with her behavior. She still thinks she "repented" when she got baptized. I told her she spent time at the park with the OM not even 3 hours after "repenting", and that she obviously doesn't know how that works.
On Wednesday I had to drive 7 hours to attend my uncle's funeral. I dropped the kids off with my W at a park. I watched as they walked with my W into the distance and couldn't help but think of the symbolism of my family slipping away.
My W texted me some time after the hour when I would have arrived at my destination with "Get there OK?" I just kind of sat and looked at the message, shaking my head thinking, "Why the hell would you care?" I politely replied back in the affirmative.
My W's behavior irritates me, and sometimes I feel like just telling her off. But I spend a lot of time in prayer in the mornings and evenings and ask for that bitterness and resentment to be taken away. It works. I just want to get the dirty business of divorce over with and move on to what God has in store for me next.
WAW Using God Me-43 W-40 M-14 S-11 S-9 D-7 EABomb 5/09 Separated 12/09
