Here's what I "see" in you. You are afraid to take action but you want to control everything by stonewalling - stop going to MC because it mads you "feel" upset. Your wife won't be attracted to a emotionally weak man. You sound very scared, unsure of yourself and angry deep down. You exhibit passive-aggressive, co-dependent and pessimistic behavior.
Stop letting your feelings control you. Make yourself responsible for your own happiness. You have a choice in how you think, feel, and act.
She will notice when you start acting like a man.
Cheers
Wow. That's sincerely the most insightful advice I've received about my whole sitch.
