Not sure if this is a pick me up for you or not, but it sounds like your mental state has really improved lately.
Right now, I am about in the same place as you are. I have accepted that she doesn't want to work on the M and there is nothing else I can do but move forward. I am making plans for myself and for my kids to be with me.
Keep woring on GAL and being with your kids. Focus on them and find things to do that make you all happy. We will survive this one way or another. There is no other choice.
Listening to music that I like always seems to help get me through rough patches.......find something that will do the same for you.
