The saga continues

[OfficerInNeed]

There is no longer a quest room. W and I decided to toss old bedset a couple weeks back.

Not only is she part owner of the house. We are first time home buyers, and we received the 8K grant from the gov. with that we both agreed to reside in the home for a 3 year period and not sell the hom before 3 years has expired, if so we have to pay the full amount back.

In what context do you mean afraid? Yes, I don't want to lose her and I am trying to convince myself I already lost her. Not only was I attached to my W but I am still attached to her family. They have absolutely no clue what is going on. This would devastate them but of course they would all side with W.

FIL will indeed pick up the slack. My W is his everything. Thats the thing, allowing time for W to miss me won't really happen because her father will be her crutch (along with the rest of her family. She has great family support, they all think the world of her).

I think W is growing up as we speak, she came out of her shell and finally seen things for what they were. W is very strong willed, once you break her trust, it is VERY hard to get back. As I mentioned long ago she has pretty much shut her own mother out.

I had gone to counceling provided by my employer but you are only allowed so many sessions before they refer you to someone else. My insurance does cover it I believe but was advised not to use insurance for such purpose because it will cause alarm and could cause issues for my employment.

I had gone to a theraphy session but did not think the therapist could help with my situation and it was suggested to dump her. I started to talk to a pastor at church. W has knowledge of me seeking help but can careless. As she had put it "pat yourself on the back" , "I'm glad your making youself better, you can make someone else happy" I posted such comments in the past and was told "don't listen to anything W says it is right in DR/DB book."

Yes I shelled out the money for DB coach in hope it would improve my sitch. I wanted to make sure at the time I tried everything possible. I have still yet called for my last session because as you have alluded to earlier they don't grasp the whole state of our sitch.