New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

Today is my W's birthday. I wasn't sure if I should send something. I thought a lot about it and decided to still send something just to acknowledge her birthday. Nothing big, just a little basket of cookies that I had delivered.

Tomorrow is MY birthday. I am not expecting much to be honest. Birthdays were really important and celebrated when my W was with me. Now, it's just another lonely day, without anybody caring. I will treat myself to something tomorrow. A good lunch, a good workout in the gym, maybe a good book.

The loneliness is hitting me hard tonight. I forced myself to go outside this evening and pull some weeds from my driveway. I probably will link up with a fellow officer this weekend and have a BBQ with his family. At least something to do. I guess being alone hits everyone differently. Tonight, it's really killing me. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

JR