You are doing so well. It feels so good over here, doesn't it?
I've been told a few times that I have really been handling this well. I've also been told that I *really* checked out a long time ago. Do you think you *knew* a long time ago as well?
It's so hard to face. And then to come here and see the work that needs to be done. There isn't really a road map, just a general direction.
I am excited for my life. For my future.
For the first time in a long time I'm not wasting energy on making someone else happen, and I'm not waiting for them to be happy so I can be happy.
I don't think it's selfish. I think it's about time.
It does feel good ... for sure. But I still have my moments where I need to stop and feel the hurt and pain, and I grieve ... and then I dust myself off and turn my face up to the sun and breathe deep ... and then, yes, I'm excited again! Feeling the hurt and pain is what is going to keep me real ... keep me remembering my role in this and keep me from repeating my mistakes.
And yes, I agree! It's about time girlfriend! Now pour me another and turn up the tunes
PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
