Ok, I just read all the way through the letting go thread posted by Gucci Loafer.
I think I'm letting go without even trying. I mean, at a certain point it gets TOO hard to keep up the energy with a WS who gives you NOTHING.
Sorry to ramble, but I'm really conflicted on this. And my mind has been hyperactive all day. (I guess maybe I can still blame it on the meds a little bit - hahaha!)
But seriously...
I have this paperweight that I've had for a long time. It was given to me by a wonderful mentor who died awhile ago. It says: The secret of success is constancy to purpose.
I keep it on the counter.
For a long time, every time I looked at that paperweight, I was re-energized with respect to Mr. A. My purpose was very clear.
Lately, though, my purpose is murkier. Posts like Gucci's are starting to get to me. I love Mr. A and I would NEVER want him to stay in an unfulfilling relationship. But I still wish he would TRY to have a fulfilling relationship with ME.
So I don't know. I guess I want to "set Mr. A free" - but not just because I lost the drive to keep trying.
