The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Hey BBJ, another day in first place. Beautiful day for a win. Hey the Cardinals had their decade. 2010 to 2019 is the era of the new Red Machine.

Yes. The struggle is how to act. I've tried to put up a front for the past year. Really I've been putting up a front for five years really.

So I guess angry silence will be fine. It's a 180 in a way. Someday I will wake up and not care -- so much.

Got a text from STBXW while in Chicago. Tonight is family night at D7's camp. I told D7 this morning I couldn't come and she said she was fine with that.

STBXW texted asking if I wanted her to pick up a sandwich for me for tonight's camp?

I texted back that I was in Chicago and wouldn't be coming. And that D7 knew that.

Later she asked if I was taking them Monday -- we both have it off as our July 4 holiday.

It's her weekend and her holiday with the girls. In the past when she's offered me extra time with them it's because she had plans. Well except once. Once she just stayed home with them.

Anyway, I thought about it for a while. I have them six straight days beginning Tuesday and have a lot planned. Monday I have nothing but STBXW doesn't need to know that.

So I texted back I wouldn't be back until 7ish Monday.

I'm considering taking the train into Chicago and hanging out with friends.

It also means she's not using me as baby sitter to hang out for the day with OM.