Healing my Heart part 8

[fightingirish]

Thanks nc and Kat.. little update...

we had a long talk last night, until 1am. Lots of things were said, all of which were straight forward and to the point.

I won't say word for word, (too long obviously) but He is definately struggling with inner demons and I am now actively looking for someone for us to go and talk with.

Its not me, its him, he admitted so. He told me that he loves me more than anything, and the stupid things he does, he doesn't know why he does them and that his intensions are not to hurt me. That the kids and I are the only thing important to him. He also said he knows that words are empty but said how he felt about me and if we need a doctor to tell me what I need to do then so be it.

I feel very optimistic, I told him We will do everything we can to work this out and that I'm not one for giving up and he said he can't lose me..

So that's about it. I am physically and emotionally drained today. But im hoping this is a start of something better. I do love him so much, It kills me to go through this.

Thanks all.

T