Not much of an update for me this morning as things were status quo last night. Although, H did call on his way home and wanted son and I to go to dinner. (The other 2 kids were out.) Son wanted to go so we did. It was pleasant enough and then, of course, H came home - went running - and played XBox. He hadn't been running the past 4-5 nights because of his sore leg but decided he needed to last night after the big dinner, I guess. I was going to offer to bike along, but he left while I was upstairs doing something and I didn't even know it. Still no luck with the cellphone! He either has it with him or I sleep through in the morning and can't be sure whether he's always taking it in the bathroom when he showers. I guess I'm just too used to sleeping through his morning alarms.
Having said all of that...I do have the appointment today with the counselor and then his is tonight. I left all of the paperwork for him on his desk that he has to fill out and he was asking me about it. He seems pretty glad to be going.
I am preparing a list of all the programs that I have been checking out to give the counselor: this one, the Mort and Larry ones, etc... I want the counselor to know my philosophy on how this whole FT should go! I know she has to be completely objective with him tonight, but I want to make sure she and I are on the same page! I don't know what it is, but I am not looking forward to going today. I think I'm just tired of dealing with all of this. I want a break from it. I find myself wishing H would just go on a business trip for a few weeks so I could just not have to deal with it all for awhile! Every now and then that text msg he sent to his old girlfriend just pops in my head and I want to throw up!!! During those moments, I'll be honest - I just want him gone. So little respect for that.
