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[awest1217]

yesterday was a normal day. H came over late (almost 2 hours late). He said he would come to make us breakfast and didn't, but instead came and never even apologized for being late. My mom was already over to take down a branch that had fallen last week in the storms. H asked to help. I said no he can hang out with S. My mom and I couldn't get the branch down so H asked to help again. I said ok and he was able to get it down and helped to clean up the mess it made. I said thank you.

During the tree thing I broke the weight on the rope (one of S's cups), another had also broke last week just from age, so H said he would get S some new cups. We went to the store and got the cups. Then lunch.

H wanted to watch the two toy stories with S so they watched those while I rested. After S and H played. It was close to dinner so I asked H if he wanted to stay, more because I was being polite. He said he would like to so we did dinner. Then S fell asleep and H said he didn't want to leave with S asleep so he waited a little and when S woke up said good bye, gave us both a kiss and left.

The whole day was fine. We had pleasant conversation. Talked a little about how I feel manipulated and am tired of everyone including him taking advantage of me because I don't have to foster a good relationship between all of them, but I do for S. That only lasted about 10 minutes then he changed the subject. He did say things like how a coworker wanted to move and he said move next to me (meaning he still lives with us), and said some other things like he lives here or plans on living here one day, but he does that all the time. I really think in his mind one day he will say I want to come home and I will just say "ok".

I did send him a text saying thank you for spending time with S and helping with the branch, but that is it. I am still very much not wanting to talk to him or be around him. I am suspicious of everything he does because I don't know what his motives are or where we fit because he won't talk about anything. I doubt he will text me at all today or tomorrow. Then Saturday he is going to take S to a airplane show. It is supposed to be with his parents, but now he wants to drive himself. I said whatever, but more and more I am getting suspicious that he just wants to do that so he can drive with OW and I won't have it so I am going to probably text him later that I don't want them driving separately, even though H said he was because he doesn't want to argue with his parents if S gets fussy, I just don't want to deal with it. Yeah OW could still go with his parents because she goes over there anyway, but they are so jealous of S's time that i don't think they would want to share him with another person.

Still just not wanting to be with H. I am definitely where H probably was the beginning of last summer. I don't want to be with him, and may file later this month. I just really want to talk to him about it in person first so I will try to schedule something with him next week and go from there....we will see.