Meaningless Sex or does it mean something

[MHL]

I can't believe I ran across this thread. I have been separated from my W for 9 months and it has been almost a year since we ML last. 2 weeks ago we had what I considered sex under the influence of alcohol, it was fantastic. After my W woke up, she said "we made love?" and I said yes we did.

Next day she said she felt bad about the night before, felt sick to her stomach and that she thought I took advantage of her.

The connection was there before sex, in fact I would say I saw the "love" in her eyes.

I believe "sex" does keep the connection between you going. I am just trying to figure out how to create the opportunity again. I would love to F@#k my way out of this nightmare or at least let it be a basis to start from.