H moved in w/ OW. Wants month to fig things out.

[seanna]

I'm beginning to think that I'm the one with the addiction. Today was such a bad day. I went to bed angry and left mean texts. I woke up obsessing about the whole thing and got even madder. Now I'm upset.

I was fine with my decision to file. I REALLY blew it by letting him back in the last time. I gave the letter that was in the infidelity document that you sent me, he wanted to come home, I thought I heard something different in his voice so I took him back.

He stayed until 2 days after our 15th wedding anniversary then bailed again. Now I feel hopeless cause I told him that the next time he did this it was over forever. Now I have to stick to that because I'll look like a coward.

To make things worse I told him all I wanted was an honest apology because I deserved it and not to think that I want him back ever.

I feel like such a piece of crap and that I should file get it over with, and bury my head in the sand cause I lost all my mojo. Just gave it away, poof! gone just like that.

Now what? Any chance for me, or did I totally mess things up beyond repair??

I'm embarrassed and ashamed. I'm sorry I didn't listen to the advice well enough. I totally learned what can happen if I act on my feelings.

PLEASE HELP!!! I don't know what to do......