Tomorrow is Canada Day up here so it's a holiday. To refresh, she sayed at Amanda's Sunday night (after hospital) and last night too for some reason.
On my way home from work (though she called me today for some reason. She had her mon's car; doing maintenance; blah, blah)she texts one sentence.
"I won't be home tonight" I saw it (so she sees an 'R' by the message indicating I opened it) and I did't reply at all.
30 minutes later I have another but I haven't looked yet. I had to pick up D and I wanted to get this info on the board for some help.
This time there is no mention of where or who. This is three nights in a week away from D. She is rearranging her "plans" for the weekend due to her confusion over my agenda on the 50th Anniversary. I haven't had the opportunity to put a GPS phone in her truck. I still have no access to her cell phone. I haven't got a plan for microphones in the house on the weekend.
My gut has been flopping for two hours.
I am so angry; hurt; disappointed right now I have no words. I'm not giving up on me here, FYI. I worked out this imorning and had a good "work day"
Is it possible she is pushing for a reaction? If so, since I can't prove an affair, could it be possible she is trying to: -force my hand to start the Sep Paper (so, again, it isn't her work or decision)? -isn't getting the pursuing she is expecting; is having second thoughts; and wants me to break the ice? -just being an inconsiderate selfish teenager who is going to make some HUGE mistakes? -eating cake since I have been ignoring the Sep papers and biding my time. I have seen time as my ally in this because the more that goes by, the more time she has to "get the big picture"
I am really confused right now. I haven't had the opportunity to set the cell phone etiquete boundary and I don't have hard intel that anything is actually going on.
PLEASE, before I read and send a response (if I even choose to), can I get some input?
Thank you so much, everyone.
Sandi, haven't heard your thoughts for a while so......
