I wonder if it almost might have been better had that happened earlier on. I acutally do understand, in theory, that he has "unresolved" issues and questions and issues about the R. But, too bad. Me and the M should be coming first at this time and building trust was supposed to be a focus.
He is still away... we will have to talk about all this when he gets back. But, I don't know how we can get past this.
I have been grieving all day. Waves of sadness will just wash over me out of nowhere. 20 years of marriage, memories, children.... life. Done. It sucks.
But I will be ok.
I have the most amazing support and I rule my world!
