Still Moving Forward

[BeingMe]

Thanks Seeking and Hmama! I do thank God for this miracle.

Today, my baby girl graduated high school. I cannot believe how fast time went. She will be away most of the summer, and I am planning a trip back to the home country for half the summer. S23 will continue on with college --- welding. H will be starting a new project soon in north Ontario and then in China.

We will have time in July to talk about things ... he says I can have everything, but I know he's just saying that and I sure don't want everything (I still said to him that "you say that now, but down the road you'll probably change your tune"). I want a proper SA in place with alimony coming into my bank account regularly, so I can organize my own finances long before we actually separate physically. This, while he is being generous.

I think I will try and get a half-day job just to help with school. D17 will be starting uni in the fall, and I would prefer H spend the money on her than on my classes.

This is still so new and so strange. He still wanted to kiss/hug me hullo and good-bye or goodnight, etc., but I don't initiate, so he has stopped. Sure got the hint. I have stopped saying ILY (no point because I don't) --- he got that hint too so has stopped saying ILY after phone calls. He has remained in the bed ... will probably leave if I tell him, but it is the more comfy bed, so I haven't had the heart to kick him out just yet.

He is planning a trip to his brother in Florida with D17 at the end of the year. So, I will be alone around Christmas time unless S23 is home. I don't mind really. I could try and go visit D30 in Germany.