I don't recognise a lot of the names here and that means that there are a of hurting new people.
I have been MIA, thinking things through and evaluating events at the Double K Ranch. There has been a significant improvement in the relationship between Mr Kara and I. But alas, I don't see the necessary dedication and interest on his part to rebuilding this M.
So, I HAVE DECIDED that I will be putting it all in the rear view mirror and heading in the opposite direction. And I have reached my cutoff point this time.
Mr. Kara has changed within the last six months but not enough. I was operating in the context of OW and that is always a difficult thing to do. However, I relied on God and am satisfied that is how I was meant to do it. I have no regrets there.
Through much prayer and the passage of time, I have relegated OW to her rightful position in my life. PERSONA NON GRATA. I wish her and Mr. Kara the very best. I almost feel sorry for her. Evil Grin. She has no idea of his deep seated issues. However, it is possible that they are well suited to each other and will live happily ever after. Whatever. Not my problem.
I really have no problems today. My future is in God's hands and he knows the plans he has for me. I know it is something great. I am pursuing a postgraduate degree and I am excelling at work. I am at my healthiest and most attractive right now.
God is good. The serprent may have bitten me but I am not dead. No, I am not dead at all.
I could never wrap my head around how you could have been married to someone, take the most sacred of vows and years later the person is out of your life. Perhaps you bump into them at the supermarket and say to someone "We used to be married". I never wanted that violent severing of what was such a fundamental joining of two people in God's most precious union. Couldn't comprehend it.
BUT, I don't perform miracles and my name is not Jesus.
And so, I put all this drama in my rear view mirror. Mr.K. OW. I put my shades on. Turn up some music. And I drive in the opposite direction. And they get smaller and smaller. And smaller. And I can't see them anymore.
