This rollercoaster gives me a headache so I got off and stayed off........
Boy it is hard not getting emotional about H but I try not to. They try to pull us back in all the time with their antics.
H is looking for his next holiday. Yep you've guessed it on a cruise which was our last special family holiday before he left. H eis slowly running out of destinations. I really don't mind any more. Everytime he goes he has a reality check. He can't steal the memories we had nor reproduce them as the children aren't invited lol! OW doesn't want them there as it will impact on her time with him. It's been a huge learning curve for me. My unhappiness and emotional anxiety about him visiting these places didn't change anything only made me very unhappy.
You're now on new unchartered water but you will be fine and eventually see these holidays for what they are with your H trying to find his 'happiness'.
